BEGINNING TO BELIEVE

Crying my heart out made me feel light, like never before.

Perhaps like the sky that shines with a grin after shedding all its clouds.

Each tear bulges out; filled with grief.

Rolls on my cheeks & tickles down, saving me from that part of grief.

But why am I filled with grief !?

Is it because I fear losing you !?

Or because I fear losing the fear of losing you !?

 Is it because a part of mine says that I have lost you !?

Or is it because I have lost myself in finding you !?

I wonder if it’s because I fear to believe that I have already lost you.

Yes, I fear to believe that I have already lost you.

Losing you... Is it really as easy as I spell it !?

I wish it was. I wish it was easy for me to forget you.

Wish I had your heart, so I that I cud forget u, like you forgot me.

Do I even need a heart to forget u !?

Shedding my tears, feeling light, I make an attempt to flush-out the fear in me.

Fear that fears me to believe I have lost you.

I acquaint myself that I am allowed to b me again, even without you.

Now all I want to do is, believe you are not around & show you that I AM BEGINNING TO BELIEVE...!!